Smiling.

On the day eve before a new President is sworn in, I am smiling.  Smiles because I have hope in our future now.  I lost a long-time friend because I voted for Trump.  Sad that she has so much bitterness and hatred in her heart.  I was never a big fan of Obama but I never said nasty things about him, nor did I not support and respect the Office of the President of the United States.  I smile because I feel positive about our future.  Yes I do.

Sunshine yesterday brought a lot of smiles on my face.  It felt so good to feel warm sunshine on my face in the middle of January.  North Carolina has unusual weather.  Monday can be ice cold and by Friday, you can wear your swimsuit.  Love it!!

If you don't have a reason to smile, make something up.  Think of something funny.  Just never lose your ability to smile.  It may be dark in my life sometimes, but I always smile and try to stay positive.  Even if I have a lot of medical things going on, which I do right now, I still smile.

Welcome each day with a thank you Lord and big smile that you have another day to enjoy.

Just recovering from 8 to 10 inches of snow and have found myself staying "inside" since Friday.  During those long days and nights I am on FB scrolling a lot and reading the posts of folks.  Sometimes it brings tears to my eyes.  I really believe God favors some.  I read about them having a soul mate, spouse or friend that provides them the joyful means of traveling, shopping and just down right happiness "together".  I have never had that in my entire life.  I wouldn't have a clue what it is like to have a man "love me" or do anything with or for me.  I have been married, but only on paper.  Once the vows were said, everything changed and I do mean everything!!!

I had a lot of fun as a young woman.  I danced a lot and partied a lot.  Even though I did, I managed to work every day and learned at an early age that not even my parents would be there for me.  I learned to be self-sufficient and did everything by "myself".  At age 65, it is the same life, all by myself and doing most everything by myself.  Silence is not golden to me.  Silence is the norm.  Often I tell my dog, Sophie, that I wished she could talk.

I am happy for those folks who have someone to share life with.  I am happy for those folks who that special one in their life that "loves" them.  For me, life has been being "alone".   But, I smile.  I go on.  I thank God for my health and a roof over my head and a warm bed.  So, with gratitude I will continue to read the posts, enjoy the photos of all the fun everyone is having and continue my life in "silence".