Tears and more tears!

I can't post this on FB because my son might see it.  I am sitting here with tears streaming.  I live in a senior complex with residential apartments behind me.  Tonight between 7:30 and 7:45 PM, someone vandalized my front porch.  First it scarred the crap out of me.  Someone took a small planter and threw it through my screen door and hit my main door.  It sounded like a baseball.  I called the police and filed a report.  But that report does not give me pack my sense of security.  I can't move.  I really like where I am, but once it starts, I expect it will continue.  Am I scared, of course.  I live alone.  I am old.  I am poor.  What can I do?  Nothing!  Absolutely nothing.  I do have my gun out.  I do know how to use it and I always keep it loaded.  But I should not have to live this way.  Why are people so mean and disrespectful?

I am very much a positive person, but this time I feel that this is going to continue, because they cannot be caught and cannot be stopped.  I do know how to shoot and I don't care if they are young,  old, black, white or purple, I will shoot if anyone comes and I catch them.

Just say a prayer for my safety and my sanity because this has shaken me.

Tears streaming.

Walking and thinking

As I was walking with Sophie a short time ago, I was thinking...lol I know, scary!! I have a "small" circle of friends, all female with the exception of one special man who is so kind. I love my neighbors and speak to them when I am out, but I don't want to get close to them and let them know my business. I am here for them, and they are here for me. I like my single life. As I told my male friend, "I don't and won't put up with BS!". He just laughed. But, I do miss conversations sometimes, not that my "X' ever offered any!! That is the truth!! Silence was golden there! lol But you young folks remember, when you get old and you are all alone, you will look back on your life as I do every single day, and wish you were still young and having the fun you used to have. So you "youngins", make each moment count and enjoy each day with smiles, laughter and love. Because, you WILL be my age one day and I hope you can say you had a blast reaching this age. I did, but I sure miss the fun!!

What's been going on?

A lot has been going on.  Finally, after numerous visits and tests by my urologist, I am well.  No cancer, no infection...feeling blessed.  And, after several visits to my dermatologist, and after having been diagnosed with Basal Cell Cancer on my leg, I am healing.  WOW!  Burned and scraped and burned and scraped!  Pretty good size indention and open wound in my leg, but I will survive.  Those are the key words:  I will survive!!

I can actually feel spring getting closer.  It feels and smells different outside.  I have taken walks with my special furry baby, Sophie, 3 times this week.  The weather has actually been decent enough for sleeveless and shorts.  That will change, of course.  Cooler air for the latter part of the week.  But, spring is coming.  That means lots of birds singing and lots of color when I plant all my favorite flowers.

There is something about flowers that just bring joy to my soul.  I love to get my hands into the dirt and smell the soil.  Watching my flowers bloom and then enjoying them for the balance of the year just makes my heart sing!

So bye for now.  Quiet and peaceful here.  Enjoy each day and remember to SMILE!